What does relapse mean? What does it feel like to relapse after a long period of time sober?
We always focus on the "she was sober for 13 years and then drank" part. and we think that's the bad part of the story.
when really, imagine how it feels to re-start being sober knowing that it's not as bright and sparkly as it was before (at least, not to begin).
So you might as well learn it now. whatever it is. and you can scoop out everything you can. This audio mentions cantaloupe, kiwis, and ice cream.
Unwinedgal (day 317): "Fear of regret is a huge motivator in my recovery tool box. You are sooooo right that there was no sparkle after quitting drinking the second time around -- which is this time for me -- at least at first. I remember trudging through and having to just white knuckle a little bit because I had already read a lot of books, podcasts, blogs the first time. I knew the drill. It wasn't like I was absorbing this new, novel information like the first time. I now had to accept it instead of just learn it. I needed way more accountability and that is when I reached out to you :-)
I really don't want to go through those early days again ... reminding myself that I don't want to go back there, and really, even more than that, that there is nothing to go back to, keeps me safe and sober..."
Amara (day 47): "I love this podcast. You make me laugh, and at the same time you get right into my brain and under my skin. It's raw and honest, and I really need that. I think many of us do. Thank you, Belle. xox, Amara"