This audio is in response to an email I received from Red Riding Hood. She said: "I struggle with forgiving myself for putting myself in dangerous situations when drinking."
Now this audio is sometimes hard to listen to, because I talk about the things that happen when we over-drink. I also talk about how to ensure that these things never happen again ...
Comments from listener:
4mylife: "I started listening about min 18, and first thing I heard was sexual assault. I was like *whoa*, but as I listened I heard what I needed today. Funny how that seems to work with you Belle. Specifically I heard that what happened happened. Whether it was my fault or not it's in the past. Who I am today is is not that person. I am not the person who put others lives in danger. I am not the person who made bad choices leading to bad things that happened. Today I am the person who chooses to be sober today and because I make that choice life is filled with joy and sunshine. That is something that I get now because I am 259 days from my last day 1. Day 1 sucks rocks. Thanks Belle for helping put the gas in my sober car today. Hugs."
and once Red Riding Hood heard this, here's her reply to me:
"What a gift, Belle. This made my day, making my week, really ... So very helpful. I still have to gather all my thoughts on it. I am happy to be facing forward, sober. I take much better care of me now and I want no part of alcohol, I lived and learned, it took what it took, and I am going to make the most of my present. I will continue to report any static so as to tune into bigger better stations. I will implement more supports, and be really really kind to myself, and have a daily support routine system, various tools, self care has to be incorporated as a non-negotiable in my life. How clear it became to me how often I was hurting myself when I drank, it tore away at me, blurring my sense of the world and who I was, let alone who others were, how could I perceive reality when my brain was bathing in poison? It is like a veil has been lifted. Now that the alcohol has been removed ... Big hugs!"
Homework: Even if the specifics of this audio don't directly apply to you, what aspect of this audio does apply to something in your life?
hugs, belle xo