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genre: Drama writed by: Margaret B. Young Country: Congo directed by: Tshoper Kabambi Audience score: 25 vote Runtime: 90Minute.

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Love From Pakistan. God Bless You. Welcome to the r/MTVChallenge Redemption House, losers! For the past few weeks, teams have been drafted, battles have been waged, and custom-made Johnny Bananas backpacks worn. Now well on our way to finding the fantasy draft’s champion, it’s time to introduce one of the most hated twists in the game - the Redemption House! Losers will battle head to head in a fight for redemption, coming back from embarrassing losses, terrifying finals, and (supposed) voter insanity. While you won’t enter back into the Winner’s Bracket, you may just find yourself the Ruler of Redemption. For the first day of the tournament, there are four match-ups total: two match-ups in the Real World bracket, and two match-ups in the Road Rules bracket. Real World Bracket Match 1. 0: u/challengefanatic ’s “Getting Down to the Needy Greedy” vs. u/HereToTalkTV ’s “TJ’s T-Mobile myTouch 3G Slide” [ Final: Rivals III] Teams u/challengefanatic Zach Nichols, Battle of the Seasons II Nelson Thomas, Invasion of the Champions Mattie Lynn Breau, War of the Worlds I Jonna Manion, Rivals I u/HereToTalkTV Mark Long, Battle of the Sexes Susie Meister, The Ruins Brandon Nelson, Cutthroat Melissa Reeves, Vendettas Winner’s Logic u/challengefanatic Zach is an ace. The man is great at puzzles, eating challenges, and anything that requires great physical strength. With this team, he'd be able to pace himself with anything that requires physical strength and thus keep up his stamina. Nelson as we all know has so much heart, we've seen him be a beast in the physical and endurance dailies/eliminations. He has lots of endurance, and is also very good at eating challenges. While Mattie might not have the best endurance yet, she has proven to be a physical and mental threat. She won the very difficult spinning puzzle challenge on War of the Worlds and has lots of physical strength that would help the team. Her and Zach would have no problem solving a puzzle together quickly. Jonna has also proven to be good at puzzles, beating Sarah Rice (with Jasmine) in a mental elimination. She's a great asset to have with lots of potential and heart. She's very crafty and a great team player, shown multiple times in Battle of the Seasons and with her partners. u/HereToTalkTV Mark Long - The godfather of the challenge. This two time champ was able to avoid seeing an elimination for the first 5 seasons he was on due to his political skills. An all around dominate player in strength, speed, and agility, Mark dominated the daily challenges in most seasons that he was on. On Battle of the Sexes, Mark lead his team to victory and finished the season first place in individual points. Susie Meister - A two time champ and undefeated in eliminations! Ruin's vintage Susie was the only woman on the Champs team to make the final (eliminating 3 competitors to get there). Susie was the puzzle-master on the team and solved the final puzzle to cinch the win over the Challenger team. This is also the Susie that won arguably the best female elimination in a rope version of pole-wrestle against Kim. Overall a well rounded competitor and very much willing to get cutthroat in order to win. Brandon Nelson - The Underdog. On Cutthroat, Brandon was thrown into 4 eliminations by the Red Team despite being one of their key players in the dailies. Brandon was eventually eliminated by Derrick in a pole-wrestle type match which is Derrick's specialty so no shame there. Brandon has a background in athletics - he was All-State in High School for Basketball, Football, and Track and then went own to play college football at the University of Arkansas. Brandon is also overall a team player - he's been paired with a team that wants to throw him into every elimination, an unathletic Kaitlyn, don't-call-me-a-guy Ty, and a bickering Fresh Meat team on Seasons. In all those situations Brandon always still gave his all and tried to work with his team/partners to the best of his ability. Melissa Reeves - We've only seen one real season of Melissa, but from what we have seen, she seems to have real potential. During the opening Rock of Gibralter run on Vendettas, Melissa placed 5th for the women beating women like Kailah and Sylvia who have proved to be competent enough runners in future seasons. During her time on Vendettas, Melissa won a climbing based elimination and put up quite a scrappy fight in a wrestling based elimination against Sylvia. Rivals III Final Description This two-day final consisted of several checkpoints, each outlined below (thanks to u/mthompson22599 for the info!. Day One CP1: Teams had to untangle three sets of coiled wires. Once the wires were untangled, the person could blow up a dynamite stick, indicating they were finished. Teams could not move on until all players had finished. CP2: Teams had to complete a memory game. CP3: Teams completed a two-dimensional puzzle. End of Day One: Teams had to sprint to their sleeping station to end the first day. At the sleeping station, teams had to take turns staying awake or sleeping throughout the night. Day Two CP4: Teams faced an eating challenge. The foods seen as traditionally more disgusting were worth a larger amount of points, given to the eater after they finished the plate. Teams had to eat all the food on the table in order to leave. Run: Teams had to climb up a mountain to get to the finish line and the grand prize. Match 2. 0: u/ecarroll32 vs. u/whitneyahn 's "Stream 'Candy' by Doja Cat" [ Final: The Inferno 3] Teams u/ecarroll32 Rogan O’Connor, War of the Worlds II David Burns, The Gauntlet II Coral Smith, Battle of the Seasons Jenna Compono, Rivals III u/WhitneyAhn Shane Landrum, Vendettas Sean Duffy, Battle of the Seasons Camila Nakagawa, Dirty 30 Tori Hall, Cutthroat Winner’s Logic Since u/ecarroll32 did not submit a player summary, I was forced to take time out of my very busy three-day weekend, consisting entirely of laying in bed, watching The Circle, and eating Girl Scout Cookies, to write the following: u/ecarroll32 Rogan O’Connor is the shoot your shot king, infamously known to have commented “I can’t wait to bang you on that sofa, ” during one of Ashley “The Millionaire” Mitchell’s Instagram Lives. David Burns is so attractive that his Real World: Seattle show’s casting director fell in love with him and got fired for pursuing the relationship. If that’s not enough, David Burns is CT’s cousin. He’s CT’s cousin, y’all! Coral “I Don’t Wrestle, I Fucking Beat Bitches Up” Smith. That is all. Jenna Compono’s cartwheels once made Leroy admit that her season of ‘The Real World’ was his favorite. Her father does not own a bakery, and this interferes with her job prospects. u/WhitneyAhn Camila Nakagawa: Camila is a two-time champ, and generally considered one of the best women to ever compete alongside Laurel, Emily, and Evelyn. She also was the only person to ever beat Laurel in an elimination. She's an incredible swimmer, runner, endurance athlete, and is very good at finding shortcuts and ways to "beat the game", such as by tying a knot around herself to prevent her from falling in a daily where she had to had from a rope. Shane Landrum: Generally considered the best athlete to never make a final, and always one of the biggest threats to win a final. He's strong at puzzles, one of the best swimmers to ever compete, and can eat like no one's business, as seen in Invasion of the Champs' curry eating daily. His endurance is also incredible, given that he was in the top 3 of the Rock of Gibraltar opening purge on Vendettas, finishing behind only Joss and Nicole, beating 6-time champ Bananas, champs Brad and Rogan, Champs vs Stars victor Tony, and finalists Nelson, Leroy, Cory, and Kyle. He also has a career 35 daily challenge wins. Tori Hall: Tori has made two finals, and won both of them. She's a career 2-1 in eliminations. At 5'8", she's smaller than some other girls, which allows her to her have stronger cardio than most. I'll also point out, both of her wins are team finals, and her only loss was in an individual elimination in an individual season. She grows in value by being part of a team, and these guys are running as a team. Sean Duffy: Yes, he's an asshole today. He was probably an asshole back then, too. I don't really know though, because the last time he was on was when I was 3. Either way, he's still competed twice, and won twice. Like Tori, both of these wins were team or pair seasons. Although today he's a controversial figure, at best, Battle of the Seasons Sean was a strong competitor. The Inferno 3 Final Description (thanks to u/ry-guy2fly! ) Each team starts off with four large puzzle pieces. Those puzzle pieces will be carried along the path for the entirety of the race. You will use these puzzle pieces to create a visual reconstruction of the big five animals in Africa (Lion, Leopard, Water Buffalo, Elephant, and Rhinoceros). You do this using big square blocks. For reference, Derrick is seen carrying two at a time and Evelyn carrying one. They’re bulky. Run 1: Each team is carrying their four puzzle pieces. The puzzle pieces are heavy. Seems relatively short. A 20 minute final also severely cuts into what they can show. Puzzle 1: Water Buffalo: 4 piece puzzle. Solution: Stack the pieces up like library books 2 x 2. You build the image based on an etched picture of the selected Big 5 animal. Checkpoint 1: There are five other puzzle pieces floating on a dock. Swim to the dock, collect the pieces, continue swimming to the opposite end of the lake. Run 2: Each team is now carrying 9 puzzle pieces. It seems that a large part of this run is up hill. Puzzle 2 Leopard: 9 piece puzzle. Each puzzle works the same way, only with more pieces. Solution: Pieces are layed down 3 x 3. Checkpoint 2: There are 7 puzzle pieces located at the bottom of a pit as well as a gurney to help carry them. The pit resemble a grave for a giant. Run 3: Run up a hill with your 16 puzzle pieces. You now have a gurney to help. Puzzle 3: Rhino. 16 piece puzzle. The pieces are stacked like books once again. Run 4: They are running up a mountain. There are 9 puzzle pieces to collect along the path. That brings the total to 25 puzzle pieces. Puzzle 4 Elephant: 25 Piece Puzzle. There are at least 25 puzzle pieces here. 5 x 5 to solve it. Checkpoint 3: The remaining 11 puzzle pieces are hanging above you in a net. Each member of your team must stand in the safety zone and untie the knot in order to release the puzzle pieces. This seems incredibly easy. Barely an inconvenience. Run 5: Run up the hill with your 36 puzzle pieces. This is it. Puzzle 5 Lion: 36 piece puzzle. This seems to be the only difficult puzzle yet. Solution: Stack them 6 x 6 Final Run: After you solve the final puzzle piece you no longer have to carry them. Slide down a rope and start making your way up the mountain. Climb a rope and you’ve reached TJ. You win**. ** Road Rules Bracket Match 1. 0: u/GoPackGo6 vs. u/DurtyMurty11 ’s “Team Scumbags” [ Final: Rivals II] u/GoPackGo6 Alton Williams, The Gauntlet II Vince Gliatta, Rivals III Kam Williams, Vendettas Kina Dean, The Gauntlet II u/DurtyMurty11 Noor Jehangir, Fresh Meat II Dave Giuntuil, The Gauntlet II Paula Walnuts, Rivals II Susie Meister, The Ruins Winner’s Logic u/GoPackGo6 Alton: Physical specimen, in great shape, good swimmer, and good at puzzles. Honestly he’s just good at everything Vince: fortunately not a popularity contest, Vince has proven to be strong, have good endurance, and is able to eat a lot Kam: has shown her endurance in finals and placed third amongst girls in the run up the rock of of the strongest girls. Confident and doesn’t crack under pressure. Kina: winning every elimination for her team this season, Kina is coming in with confidence. Proven as a great competitor with a strong all around game. u/DurtyMurty11 Noor: The former number one pick in FMII, this man might be undersized but is still one of the strongest guys pound-for-pound with his size. A former soccer star, he could've done much better in his final with a better partner and will follow the leads of Paula/Susie as a team player. Dave G: while the other three players are great, he is the star. Dave G, aka Mr. Cara Z., was not only a backbone of success on his Gauntlet team but took his talents from the Challenge to prime time. You can see his potential to be Detective Nick Burkhardt or Eddie Saville just by her mannerism. Everyone wants to perform better in front of a star, and Dave is the motivation our team needs to push us to our best ability. Paula: Name a person who is more perfectly suited towards a final. She can run forever, eat anything, and doesn't know the meaning of quit. She showed in Rivals II how to be a leader and can lead this squad with her veteran presence. Susie: Great at puzzles, smart, and keeps a calm presence under pressure. Rivals II Final Description (another thanks to u/mthompson22599! ) Just like the first Rivals Season, the format was three male/male teams and three female/female teams. It was split into two parts, Dream Island and Nightmare Island. To begin, the teams swam one mile in the middle of the ocean to Dream Island, where they were met with three geometric puzzles. The teams had one hour to put together their puzzles, retrieve a key to their kayaks, and paddle out to meet T. J. on a yacht. Only the top two teams of each gender would move on, with third place being purged out. The second part of the final, Nightmare Island, began with the remaining four teams swimming to the island, where they were instructed they would need to earn idols at five different checkpoints. After completing each checkpoint, teams must signal their completion of the checkpoint by pulling a pin on a smoke grenade. The first checkpoint had the teams removing 14 of the 15 pegs from a triangular board by jumping the spikes over one and another until only one remained. They could not move on until only one peg remained on the board. The second checkpoint, "What's Mine is Yours, " had the teams cutting through a chain-link fence, then solving a math puzzle using the Pythagorean theorem. Once they figured out the answer, they would have to cut the corresponding rope. If wrong, teams would have to cut all five ropes before moving on. The third checkpoint, "Food Test" had teams eating and drinking a variety of disgusting foods in numerical order, with the last jar holding the key needed to get the idol. At the fourth checkpoint, "Body Issues" teams had to move 20 body bags from one side of the course to another. After moving all the bags, teams were instructed to dig into the ground to retrieve the fourth idol. At the final checkpoint, "Tunnel Vision", the teams needed to dig a tunnel to underneath a cage with bamboo poles, with the last idol being inside the cage. Once the team had all five idols, they were able to retrieve the golden elephant and make their way to a canoe, in which they would have to row their way towards the yacht in the middle of the ocean where they would meet T. and their grand prize. 0: u/illusion_control vs. u/ToastyPuff4real ’s “Mentally? Bums” [ Final: Rivals] u/illusion_control Jordan Wisely, Battle of the Exes II Cory Wharton, Battle of the Bloodlines Natalie Negrotti, Final Reckoning Cheyenne Floyd, Rivals III ToastyPuff4real Joss Mooney, Final Reckoning Brad Fiorenza, The Duel II Kailah Casillas, Dirty 30 Robin Hibbard, The Island Winner’s Logic While ToastyPuff submitted their own player profiles (Go ToastyPuff! ), I had the pleasure of writing my own musings about u/illusion_control ’s team. Without further ado… u/illusion_control Jordan Wisely: Honestly, an absolutely incredible Challenger. I want to make fun of him so bad but he puts my one-workout-per-year body to shame. He proposed to America’s Sweetheart, Tori, and made everyone (but Cara) feel like rainbows and butterflies for a whole episode. Maybe if you vote for this team, you’ll get invited to the wedding! Cory Wharton prints out and brings inspirational quotes with him during every Challenge stay. These quotes, such as “ Weed is great, ” “Weed is good, ” and “Don’t worry, be happy ” help him to stay chill, mellow,, happy in the crazy Challenge house. Natalie Negrotti: Is willing to butcher her own face to win an elimination. Cheyenne Floyd: Who? u/ToastyPuff4real Joss Mooney: Born to run finals, his endurance is close to no other, never gives up. Physically very intimidating guy and also looks great while cleaning up. Can do good with mediocre Partners and probably great (aka 1st Place) with above average (cough Brad) Brad Fiorenza: THOSE EYES. THOSE MUSCLES. In the best shape of his Life, he is ready to run any final. Not only is he in top shape, he’s also smart and no dud at puzzles. One of the top performers in the seasons he has been on, ready to push his team to the limit. Kailah Casillas: Fierce Competitor, trains a lot and can perform good physically, though mentally a bum. Doesn’t complain. Is also very light so can be carried easily if need be. Robin Hibbard: A lot of challenge experience, smart and not willing to lose again and ready to win a final with her great teammates. A lot of heart and being an average competitor with good teammates can definitely get you the win. Rivals Final Description (thanks, again, to u/mthompson22599! ) The final format was three male/male teams and three female/female teams. It was split into two days, the first time in challenge history. The finale began with each team being dragged underwater by a boat for 200 yards. When they let go of the rope, they would then need to swim to their kayaks and then row three miles down a river to the first checkpoint. At the first checkpoint, "Pet Rock" they would need carry a heavy rock and chain until told otherwise. The next checkpoint was "Memories", which was a campsite that the teams needed to memorize every single detail. When they felt confident in remembering the site, teams could continue on with their pet rock. The next checkpoint was "Pile Up", in which they needed to shovel mounds of dirt into a wheelbarrow and transfer it to a specified dump zone further away. They could not move on until the entirety of their dirt was transferred. The next checkpoint was "Re-creation Campsite" where the teams would recreate the campsite they had previously memorized. Once the campsite was correctly ted, teams could move on. If not, they had to run back to the original campsite to memorize the site again. Finally, teams reached the "Final Feast" checkpoint. They had to finish every plate they were offered before they could move on. Instead of the normal bugs and gross food the Challenge typically offered, this time teams had to eat a delicous feast that seemed to never end. Once finished, teams hiked up to a mountain and arrived at the "Sleep or Stand" checkpoint. Here one member had to stand and alance on a rock, while their teammate was able to sleep in a tent. If the teammate fell off the rock, they had to wake their partner and switch. This lasted all night until T. came in the morning. The second part of a challenge was a hike up a mountain. Teams started based off their arrival at the "Sleep or Stand" checkpoint with the first team recieving a two minute headstart. Each team recived an avalanche beacon programmed to the keys needed to unlock the trophy at the finish line. Once teams find their keys, they could race to the finish line to meet with T. and their prize. ***Note: Unless otherwise stated, all ‘Winner Logic’ section entries are written by the redditor associated with the team, not by the hosts of the Redemption Bracket ( u/MandyMTV, u/ND_PC). Which of these teams deserves to move on in our quest to discover The Challenge Fantasy Draft’s Next Top Loser? You decide. VOTE HERE! Voting ends at 10PM EST tonight. Happy voting!

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Going into this film you need to realize the context of the production in order to really get the best experience from it. This film was made in the Congo, and had a Congolese cast and crew: DP, editor, director, etc. This is a monumentally huge film as it is one of the first ever made by the Congo and not by Americans putting their perspective on what the Congo is, in fact it might be the very first. Yes the writer, an actor, and most of the producers were American, but they put the control in the hands of Tshoper, who made the script his own and made this film. This is very much not American cinema. The film has some technical imperfections, but considering how it was made, and with the heart that it was made with, and by whom, this film is profound and informative. Definitely something to watch in order to expand your horizon, and understand more of what people have faced in the Congo. The Congo needs a voice. Will you listen.

I WILL NEVER COMPLAIN ABOUT MY JOB EVER AGAIN. I know that DMT and 5-MeO are completely different but wanted to post in here for anyone that's interested in Bufo! This is long AF but worth the read if you have some time! On December 20th 2019 I turned 32. The first thing on my agenda that morning was to smoke the psychedelic toad known as Bufo Alvarius or 5-MeO-DMT. I hardly slept the night before. Took a while to even get out of bed and get ready because I knew that meant I was one step closer to facing my fears. December 2018 was when I had my very first experience with psychedelics. I participated in a 2 night ayahuasca ceremony and it was very profound. I was shown visions of my childhood and also shown my parents and my ex husband's childhoods. I was taught a lot about who I am and got clarity on a lot of things. I posted a video of my experience on YouTube and through that I led a lot of people to my facilitator so that they could find their healing as well. I did not expect the response I have gotten from that video but I am so grateful that I could help so many people by sharing my experience. Here is that video if you'd like to watch: A few months later, DMT mysteriously found me and I had some amazing experiences with that but never fully broke through. Most of my DMT trips were open eye trips where I would observe myself and my surroundings. I would gasp and marvel at how everything came to life and transformed before my eyes but I was always scared to go deeper because I still struggled with my religious upbringing. Growing up as the daughter of a Kenyan pastor was no joke! I was taught that all of these things were demonic so when I would close my eyes on DMT, everything I was seeing and feeling was too overwhelming and I was filled with fear. I decided that I would just microdose and keep my eyes open, never fully allowing myself to break through. 9 months after my first aya ceremony, I sat in my 2nd ayahuasca ceremony and that one was physically harder on me than the first because I didn't stick to the dieta like I was supposed to. Even then, I still had a profound experience and learned even more about myself. Between my first and second ayahuasca ceremonies, I started hearing about Bufo Alvarius. A species of toad that lives underground 9 months out of the year and contains a chemical known as 5-MeO-DMT in its venom, which is secreted from its glands. They were calling it the strongest psychoactive known to man. I watched an interview of Mike Tyson talking about how he smoked it and how it changed him forever. I watched countless videos of other people's experiences and it all sounded so crazy to me. They talked about how the effects come on instantly and last about 15 minutes. They talked about ego death, your consciousness leaving your body and rebirth. I told myself I could never do such a thing. In the videos I saw, some people had really calm trips while others were screaming and yelling rolling around on the ground. It looked like an exorcism was going on and it looked terrifying. Completely leaving my body?! Ego death? No way! Not for me! Not ever. Yet a year later, I found myself sitting cross legged on a blanket out in nature on the morning of my birthday with a pipe in my mouth inhaling the venom of the Bufo Alvarius toad. That morning, I met up with the facilitator and a lovely lady by the name of Mo, that I had led to ayahuasca through my video. Her entire life had changed after she saw my video and drank ayahuasca. She went to Peru with the group I did my ceremony with and participated in more ceremonies and even did Bufo for her birthday! I was amazed at the strides she had made in her journey in the few months since she saw my video. We talked and laughed on the drive there and she helped calm my nerves. I kept asking her and the facilitator all these questions to try and figure out what to expect but there is just no way to prepare for Bufo. Everyone's experience is different. It was a bumpy ride to the location as we went to a very secluded place. We joked and laughed about how the ride reminded us of some roads in Africa. We are both of African descent so we joked about our upbringing and culture. When we got to the location, the facilitator noticed that his truck had a flat tire and we were in the middle of nowhere! He was working on it for a while and I kept feeling relieved because that was buying me more time before we could get the ceremony started. He decided to do the ceremony first then get back to the flat tire when we were done. I watched as he prepared all of his things for the ceremony. The whole time I was thinking oh my God I can't believe I'm really about to do this. Mo and I enjoyed the scenery as the facilitator was getting everything ready. Both the sun and the moon were visible in the clear blue sky. There was a stream nearby and birds were flying above us. Before we began, he saged me. A practice I have become familiar with from my ayahuasca ceremonies. I sat down and faced him as he brought out the glass pipes that I had seen in the numerous youtube videos I watched. I couldn't believe I was seeing these pipes in real life. He showed me the crystalized venom of the Bufo Alvarius toad in the pipe. It was brown and small. He had explained that he was going to microdose me up into the experience. The first one was a very small dose. He instructed me on how to first exhale all the air out of my lungs, and then inhale as much of the vapor as I possibly could. I exhaled then inhaled and inhaled and inhaled and when I felt like I couldn't inhale anymore, he asked me to keep inhaling. And so I did. You must have good strong lungs for this! He pulled the pipe away from my lips and watched me. Nothing happened. I closed my eyes and meditated. Waiting to see if I felt any different. But I felt nothing. Then I was ready for the next dose. He had told me that some people completely leave and have a full experience with the second dose and some people don't. After I inhaled as much as I could, I coughed a little and some smoke escaped my mouth but I held in as much as I could. Instantly, I started feeling things shifting. My body was shaking and I was letting out little screams and yelps as I laid down on my back. I was having resistance to the shift in energy. I still can't describe what it was like but it was out of control and my ego didn't like it. I was still aware that I was myself having this experience. I calmed down and returned to normal after a few minutes and sat up and looked at him. I knew that I hadn't crossed the threshold. I knew I had to take the next dose. He asked me if I was ready and I replied yes. This time there was a bigger piece of the toads crystalized venom in the pipe. This was it. The moment I had been terrified of was about to happen. Mo looked at the time and let me know that it was exactly 11:11am. Then she smiled at me and gave me 2 thumbs up and told me I was gonna do great! I exhaled all the air out of my lungs and put the pipe to my lips. He started lighting it and I slowly inhaled as much as I could and when all the vapor was gone, I covered my mouth and nose so that nothing would escape. Within seconds, I remember feeling a massive shift in energy. I was being pulled from this reality. I leaned to the side as I laid on the mat and everything turned black. I instantly felt like I was entering a sacred ancient realm. I was flying through hyperspace at a very fast speed. It was cold. Everything was black. There was nothing. Yet it was everything. And I was part of it. I was gone. I had melted. Dissolved into nothing. I had no awareness of time, or my body. My breathing became one with the Universe. It was as if I was the Universe breathing. I didn't think of my kids, my boyfriend, my family, my friends or my hopes and dreams. That world simply didn't exist anymore. It was gone in seconds. I was thrown in a dark, empty, bottomless, timeless, spaceless, void. I was floating and yet it felt like I was falling in all directions. I kept thinking "what's going on?! where am I?! " I kept looking around to find someone to help me but there was no one. Just darkness. I was trying to grab onto something to hold on to but there was nothing. I was floating. Gravity didn't exist here. It was just me in this empty black place that was eternal. I thrashed around the whole time trying to understand what was happening. As soon as I had a thought it would disappear. I was trying to hold on to my thoughts. I felt like I was on a roller coaster or that I had jumped out of a plane. It was so overwhelming and intense. This was by far the most terrifying thing I had ever experienced in my entire life. I was told that during my trip my body was shaking, I was rolling around, crawling, sitting up, spitting, yelling, screaming no no no get me out!! I had no idea that my body was doing this. I had read that you are supposed to surrender to that uncomfortable feeling of ego death but I was filled with so much terror that I couldn't even think to surrender to what I was going through. I was just trying to figure out what the hell was going on and the more I tried to understand what was going on the worse the trip got and my fear, panic and terror only magnified. Meanwhile back in the world I'm used to, the facilitator was busy working on my body to try and ground me. He put Florida Water on me. I only knew this because I could smell it on me when I came back. He was using feathers on me too but I have no recollection of that. I don't remember being calm at all. Just panic, panic, panic the whole time until I came back. I clearly remember coming back. The facilitator hit a gong next to me and I started snapping out of it. It scared me. I grabbed him in shock and looked at him with fear all over my face. I kept rolling around until I finally fully came back. I was laying on my side when I fully came back. He looked at me and said welcome back. I hugged him and I cried a lot. Told him that was the scariest thing I had ever experienced. Nevertheless, I was so happy to be back.. I was so grateful to be in my human form. I looked at the sky and the trees and the birds. Everything was crystal clear. There were honeycomb shapes in the sky as I was returning to this reality. I was looking at everything through new eyes. After I had calmed down a bit, he asked me if I wanted to go deeper by taking another dose because it was clear that I had not fully surrendered. I said hell no!! There was no way I could go through anything like that again! He chuckled and told me to get up and walk around and feel the earth beneath my feet. I did and it felt amazing. I was just so happy to be able to be in my body. So happy to be a human. I will never take this human experience for granted again. To be able to feel the sun on my skin, to smell, to taste food, to laugh, to cry. There were bees all around us and I'm usually terrified of bees but I didn't care. I was just so happy to be experiencing life with them. I let them get close to me and observed them. I honestly for the first time didn't care if a bee was going to sting me. The facilitator had a stack of cards with different animals on each card. He also had a book that had a description of what each animal meant. He told me to shuffle the cards, place them on my chest and pick whichever card called out to me. The card I ended up picking was none other than the frog! I was amazed! Here I had just done a toad ceremony and I picked the frog?! No coincidence in that at all! Also what the book described was exactly what I was going through in my life. After all of this he administered Rappé up both of my nostrils to ground me. Rappé is a dried and powdered snuff which is usually blown into the nose through a blow pipe. The benefits of rappé use range from physical and psychological to energetic and spiritual. It clears and focuses the mind and thoughts, centers and grounds your energy, opens up your physical and spiritual senses and awareness, cleanses and purifies your body and energetic fields, connects you to your spirit allies and other medicines, and much more. Rappé is always hard for me. I always have it done during ayahuasca and I'm always shaking and have a very hard time with it. I've always wondered how some people can be perfectly calm and still when it's being administered. When he blew it into my second nostril, for the first time, I was perfectly calm. I laid down and closed my eyes thinking about everything I had just experienced. Even though my eyes were closed, I could somehow see a single cloud appear in the darkness. I laid there and cried. Just filled with gratitude and love for life. We never managed to get the flat tire fixed because he was missing some tools that he needed so we had to walk for a while to get help! We had to walk through a stream and got pretty wet in the process but I didn't mind at all! I was just happy to be a human experiencing this life! That was another journey in itself and a reminder that life is so unpredictable. When we were laughing on the drive there, we had no idea that we would be walking back up those hills! I immediately got on the phone with my best friend Luiggi and told him everything that had happened! Now looking back on my experience, I feel like I went through a rebirth. Much like a newborn leaving the womb and entering this world. It's probably not the most pleasant experience and I imagine it can be quite terrifying for a soul to be born but it is something we must all go through. I read in Dr. Michael Newton's Journey Of Souls that it is more traumatic to the soul to be born than to die. When we die we know we are going home. Being born is quite the opposite. Some things I have noticed are I am no longer afraid of death. I think about it often and I am at peace with my mortality. I am also no longer afraid of the dark. I have feared being in the dark my whole life. For a while I felt like I had failed because I didn't fully surrender and experience the blissful part of Bufo. I just wanted the happy part of the trip but I got the opposite! I now realize that my experience went exactly the way it was supposed to. It wasn't a bad trip. It was MY trip. It was exactly what I needed. I was so sure that I was going to surrender but boy was I wrong! My ego put up a lot of resistance and wouldn't let go, which is exactly what I struggle with in my day to day life. I have a problem letting go of situations so that is something I have been working on. I truly believe that plant medicine and other entheogens are here to help the human race. If we really just open our minds and our hearts there is so much healing that can happen. I value and cherish my life so much more now and I don't feel so alone in this. I know that I am fully supported and that I am here for a reason. "The highest form of worship is to enjoy yourself. " These are words spoken by my dear friend who introduced me to Ayahuasca Dave Marsh. During my first aya ceremony he came over to me and knelt infront of me and told me that the Madre had told him these words and he wanted to share with me. That is why we are here. To feel. To experience. To live. So live. Live life to its fullest and show gratitude even in the darkest of times. Because without those dark times, we truly wouldn't know or appreciate the good times. Storms will come and go in our lives. That is just part of the duality that keeps things in perfect balance. Remember that no situation is permanent and the only thing that's constant is change. Be at peace with yourself and others. Love hard, forgive easily and don't hold grudges. You are the author of your story. You create your reality and the possibilities are endless. Namaste Christine Wawira You can find me on instagram if you'd like to connect.

Leave us alone! Leave us alone. @dlaw1219 I was there dude! He definitely thought it was San Francisco even though it's BERKELEY. lol Great song though, great concert in general. I was thinking the exact same thing actually, lol. Having seen Heart of Africa at a festival (had some technical deficiencies, of course) and in the final release, I can say it now competes with the best of them and does so beautifully. It's not meant to be like anything you've seen. It was shot completely in the DRC with the intent of showing the country for what it presently is. The filmmakers set out to create their own brand of cinema in a country that hasn't had it in decades. The rawness and authenticity, coupled with it being based on a real person makes for an exquisite 90 minutes of entertainment. In between the light romance and heavy family feuds are some deep lessons about self worth, forgiveness, acceptance and more. I highly recommend this film to anyone who can use some more cultural intelligence and nice evening of the feels.

The Congolese were handed a place rich with natural resourcesDoes he not mean handed back. In NoExit, Ukraine, Natalie and Mike are still fighting, and Mother Natalie taps gently at the bedroom door to try and mediate the conversation circling the drain. Mike asks if she wants him to stop eating meat and go to church, because what, one cult isn’t enough? Natalie responds that it’s not good for a child if the parents are different, and this is not PMS and why would you think that, she’s FINE. And, if closed captioning is accurate, she says something about how he believes in bowling, so this argument takes a hard Lebowski to the left, and is Mike the only person who gives a shit about the rules? Natalie declares that she’s “done” which in 90DF language means she’s going to retreat to the bathroom and turn her microphone off. Mike’s over it, too, and decides to storm out in pajama pants and head to the nearest Walmart, and if he can’t find one he’ll settle for a bar that lets him point at a tap and grunt his preference. Natalie’s Mother is so devastated that she clutches Natalie’s stuffed unicorn and cries, which is the sweetest moment since Daniel threw a stuffed shark at Ronald and didn’t stuff it full of rocks beforehand. When she comes out of hiding, Natalie realizes Mike is gone and worries that he could get mugged, because nothing says victim like a 6 foot 5 dude with ox shoulders and gorilla mitts, wearing his quitting-time pants, surrounded by empty red solo cups. When he returns, Mike hopes they can settle this non-believer dust up once and for all. “There’s like four churches in the PacNW, ” he explains. “I think there’s more Rajneesh than Christians. ” (My Polish grandmother tosses and turns and crosses herself in her grave, not enjoying my jokes at all. ) Natalie: I do not like your Rajneesh. Mike: Have you heard of the Flying Spaghetti Monster? How about the Church of the Subgenius? The Temple Ov Psychick Youth? There’s aliens involved in those churches, too. THEY ALL HAVE ALIENS NATALIE. Natalie: I cannot. Mike: Do you have any idea the ways the Cold War influenced secrecy around alien space travel, and how it’s polluted the mythology of Area 51? Am I supposed to recognize your space daddy when you can’t recognize mine? Grandmother FractalFay: Jezus Maria. Mother Natalie: This is going to make me cry with unicorn twice. Mike is so nice. Natalie’s ex husband was massive douchebag. I cannot. Natalie: Mike, you no mark calendar? It is 25th day of cycle. It was a mistake to take you to church. My uterus is angry because of your failure to make baby. You must mark calendar. I will hate you until Thursday. Mike: I am trying to draw a hard line, by making this Serious Consequences face. This should let you know that in nine months when we coparent, you’ll be tasked with discipline. I’m a soft giant. By the way, now that you’re worried you went too far and jeopardized our relationship, I’m $30K in debt. Everyone with student loans: That’s adorable. Mother Natalie: I will cut unicorn’s throat if you don’t marry this man. Natalie: I will work at tech start up to help pay bills. Seattle is how far? All of us at home: Thank the Ancient Aliens. Don’t get too starry-eyed, romantics. All the way over in Codependence, CT, Julianna is still uneasy about her financial future. Michael is hoping she’ll be utterly dependent on him, and if things go sour he can shrug his shoulders and leave her sitting on a suitcase under a bridge. He decides that some distraction is necessary for them to move past this, so he takes the whole fam, minus Sippin’ Tea Sarah, on an indoor rock climbing adventure. Juliana tries on CeCe’s Grease jacket and recalls how this is yet another something that was a rich person thing In Brazil, and everyone else just climbed on rocks to escape Paul and snakes. “You look like a high school student! ” CeCe remarks, while Michael does some quick math in his head. “No! Not like a high school student, ” he corrects. “Maybe a grad student…” Max is testing out his future by mansplaining rock climbing. “I think it’s more of an American thing, ” he well-actually’s. “I think she did that in Brazil, ” CeCe corrects. “WELL ACKSHULLY she told me otherwise, ” Max, you’re ready. Welcome to Reddit. CeCe: I’m going to remain reasonably skeptical of this statement, while deferring to you as the elder sibling. See this face? This is my Lannister face. I’m plotting, dear brother. And you need a subscription to National Geographic. Max: Oh, are you? I too have attended elite private schools, and father recognizes my masculinity by noting my superior physical strength. The student has bested the master. Soon I will go full Hamlet. CeCe: I don’t think you’re interpreting that text properly. Are you cheating and reading the modern English version and not Shakespeare’s true text? Bryson: A plague on both your houses. Max: WRONG! WRONG PLAY! WRONG! Max and CeCe crawl the walls, while Julianna and Michael crawl up the bunghole of the prenup conversation. Michael explains that their prior break up occurred because of pressure he felt from his friends, and she should totally trust someone who was so easily influenced in the past. I mean, it’s not like he was trying to involve lawyers in securing her future bankruptcy or anything. Julianna, for her part, says the mediator opened her eyes. Every time she mentions the word “independence” Michael gets angry, so she says it 60 more times. The prospect of Julianna having free will is too much for Michael to tolerate, so he decides they don’t need the prenup after all. “Okay. I don’t need financial independence after all, either, ” she kisses his cheek. In the aftermath of wanting a dependent wife and then refusing her independence, Julianna produces the first frilly-script, red-heart Valentine’s card of the episode with: “I don’t trust anyone. ” You can tell by the banjo twang and close-up of a water tower built for jumping that Angela’s segment is up. She calls in grandkid London to comfort her because she’s nervous about the K-1 visa decision, which she expects to hear about any minute. As a purchaser of Trump underpants and a motherfuckin’ tax payer, she’s certain this is in the bag. Unfortunately, Michael reports that Trump saw a Fox News special segment about Nigerian princes, and so he’s been denied. He’s so crushed by his American dream turning to dust that he starts sobbing into the phone. This stops Angela pre-yell, and she admits she’s softened by his heartbreak, and gets choked up herself. For reasons known only to her, she assumes this devastation is because Michael thinks he’s losing her, not because he’s losing the chance to see the protestors in front of Trump Tower in person. He laments the time and money they invested in the K-1, but Angela insists she’s not giving up. Fingers crossed she’ll start rage-tweeting at Trump that Michael’s not from one of those 16 Mexican countries, and he doesn’t even have The Islam. “I do pay taxes, and I pay A LOT, ” Angela clarifies, as a reminder that she’s a member of America’s non-billionaire class. “What do they want, a porno? Skylar, why are you screaming? ” Michael is taking his misery out for a drink, and he plans to meet up with Ade, Peter, and Kunde aka The Goofballs. He hasn’t seen them in awhile, but he really needs an explosive scene to prove his undying love for his state-side bride, and anyone who might be watching at the embassy. Michael tells them that he’s down, and looking for their support and advice. They admit to not understanding how aggressive and possessive Angela is, and note that women don’t act that way in Nigeria. Then Ade takes it a step too far and calls her trashy, when she prefers garbage, thankyouverymuch, and Michael pimp slaps the glasses off his face. Somewhere in Georgia, Angela wakes from a dream with a start. This does nothing to slow Ade’s stream of shit talk, so Michael smacks the drink out of his hand next. “What is happening? ” Angela asks her reflection in the bathroom mirror. “Is this quivering? I’m quivering like a tax payer with 7 dependent deductions. ” As Michael storms from the bar his whole herd of friends follow him and ask him to calm down, and Michael agrees to return if Ade sits at another table with his nose to the wall. Ade tells the producers he’s just telling the truth, and Michael doesn’t care about anyone but Angela. Michael says he would give up his friends for Angela. “SKYLAR! I’m getting the vapors! ” Angela clutches the edge of the bathroom sink. “Something is happening Skylar! My dusty egg is a movin! I can tote it, Skylar! I can tote it! ” Meanwhile, over in Sterotype, Florida, Anny is still upset that Robert is Robert, so Robert and Bryson decide to manipulate her with cake. They sing happy birthday, and I appreciate Bryson’s deliberate staccato enunciated rendition of this classic birthday harassment carol. After the song concludes, at Robert’s idiot insistence Bryson spreads a finger full of cake on Anny’s face. “We’re married now, I guess, ” Bryson says, confused and wondering why he still doesn’t have his own bed. Anny says it’s her birthday and she wants to dance, and this sounds suspiciously like fun to Robert, and he’s not paying his nanny to enjoy herself. Anny then modifies her dancing request to one where they hit a strip club so she can honor her own tits and ass in the company of similar jiggling appendages. Robert doesn’t want to go, because Anny’s birthday is all about him, which means a soothing evening of getting barked at through dinner before a Two and a Half Men marathon. “Robert is boring, ” Anny explains. Honey, you can stop right there. We’re on the same page. Despite his sad-dog expressions, Robert is willing to leave the house in his cleanest polo shirt to go to a strip club and sulk in darkness. The women at the club are seriously working that pole, and Anny declares it’s sexy because she likes facts. A dancer asks if Anny wants her to imitate intercourse on her lap, which will generate more tips and fewer diseases than grinding on most of the male clientele. Anny is down, while Robert is muttering under his breath because the preacher in Footloose warned him that car accidents and blasphemy happen the minute people start dancing. “I’m seeing another side of your ass, ” aggressives Robert, who only speaks like he’s jockeying for the best lunch table in prison, or writing the second Valentine’s Day card of the episode. “Leaping and dancing! ” Anny retort. “Ecclesiastes assures us that there is a time to every purpose under heaven. A time to laugh and a time to weep. A time to mourn and there is a time to dance. ” Kevin Bacon: Do you know Men at Work? The next day, Robert decides that despite having sex workers in the family, Anny openly enjoying herself in nude company is just taking it too far. He takes her to a donut shop so he can order a bullshit sugary coffee drink, which Anny scoffs at, thus assuring a place on my team. Red rover red rover, let Anny come over. Robert: Have you ever had sex with a woman? Anny: What, like one woman many time, or many woman one time? Robert: What? After all those hours, I feel like I hardly know you. Anny: How you feel about sister wives? Jumpstart hamster wheel in head so we can talk about birthday threesome, or, you know, Friday threesome. Robert clutches his pearls: Where are we going to put Bryson? This bed is getting crowded. Over in SelfAbsorbica, Costa Rica, Tania is still doing ayahuasca with the other trustifarians, while in Allalone, CT, indentured servant Syngin is wading through his extensive list of chores while working on his opera career. After mowing and weed-whacking has fulfilled Thursday’s housework expectations, he dips into Mother Tania’s tiramisu, and apparently hits her Jack Daniels hard enough to prolong his time in isolation. “Don’t mess with mama’s liquor, ” the prison warden explains. “That’s ten demerits. Three more and you have to reseed the lawn and repair my cracked foundation. Do you know how to pour concrete, pussy? ” “Sir, no sir! I’ll get you some more I swear! ” “Don’t try to pour some water in this bottle to make it seem fuller. I know what my whiskey tastes like. I like it like I like my home life: bitter and insulting. ” “Sir, I apologize a second time, sir! Do you know where I can buy a shitload of weed sir? ” Syngin admits that he’s lonely, and did not travel on a 90 day visa to spend 30 days alone, and 60 days being verbally interrogated. Tania points out that this is his problem, which all things are unless they’re talking about something that moderately inconveniences her, in which case it’s a Deal Breaker and also still his problem. I know she’s Woke As Fuck, but are we sure she’s not a middle-aged white man from Minnesota with two divorces that definitely aren’t his fault and a promotion he didn’t deserve? Syngin reports that he doesn’t even get many calls, because she’s too busy thonging in the ocean. “Am I the most self-obsessed person on this show? ” Tania strives for perfection. Evelyn: I don’t know. How do you like these apples? Mmmmmmm Connecticut. Leida: You can just hold my drink, okay? Okay? I am used to people holding my drink. Tania gets ready to hit the club with Team Trust Fund, and expresses concern about the lack of cute guys the last time they went out for salsa education and serious exploration of herbalism. Her friends ask if she shares these observations with Syngin, and Tania says he’s totally unreasonable and jealous every time she travels to another country to swing around dick like Anny’s dancer did a pole. She also expresses concern about their differing cultures. “White in South Africa is a different white, ” declares Tania, World Traveler, Occasional Activist, Sometimes Employed, Shed-dwelling Witchdoctor, Cultural Authority, writing this episode’s final Valentine’s Day card. After the phone rings and Tania excuses herself for a hasty five minute dismissal of Syngin, and her friends talk about how those two fight every day over nothing. Then they laugh behind her back, just like they do every day around this time. Ever-supportive Tania responds to Syngin’s loneliness and isolation by asking Syngin if he’s looked into that woodworking workshop, so he can launch a wood career around the time her witchdoctor career ambitions morph into blacksmithing. Syngin ignores this, and tells her his hot weekend plans include going over to her sister’s house to babysit. Tania says he should get into that, since he’ll be taking care of the children she demanded when she goes on all her totally focused international career-building journeys. Syngin takes a turn towards passive aggressive, because he’s going bananas being in solitary confinement with a dark cloud as a warden and no relief in site. Tania: Can you sound a little happier that I’m going out? Everything is about me, and this is not how I wrote this scene. Put a little pep in your step. And, ACTION! Syngin: If I give you more pep in my step I’m going to be stepping the fuck out of here. Hear that? It’s my backbone snapping. Tania: If you step too far the electric fence will activate your shock collar, and that’s going to really sting. Mother Tania: Just don’t use my Jack Daniels to numb the pain. I’m not here to take care of you. Shoddy The Shed: Hi Syngin, I’m your only friend! She ends the conversation by declaring she’ll do her best to contact him later, just in case you forgot that she hasn’t been in a relationship “by choice” since ever, and will not be in a relationship “by choice” as soon as she milks the proper amount of sperm from Syngin’s defenseless body. “I don’t know why he worries about me going out. I’m way more street smart than he is. I’m way more everything that he is. I mean, I wish he would get practical the way I am with my well thought out tribal herbal training camp, which totally isn’t partying in Costa Rica with a bow on its head. ” Tania’s Costa Rica friends who are also there to take life seriously offer similar pointless assessments of the situation, each leaving out the fact that he’s a foreign person living an isolated existence, which is extra funny when caged in woke buzzwords. I’d be mad at 90DF for making Tumblr-core activists look so ridiculous, but they’ve been doing that to rednecks, working class folks, and middle-aged women for years, so I suppose it was only a matter of time before the wheel spun to liberal cliche. Speaking of exhausting, Anna and Mursel are firmly planted in the same three-sentence plot that’s been following them since episode one. According to people who actually speak Turkish, Mursel said, “I just found out Anna has three kids” and not “Anna has three kids” as TLC reports. His family responds exactly the way he told us they would respond 70, 000 times ago. His mother says to come back and leave Anna in the pollen. Mursel says they used to say nice things about Anna, back before that phone call, but not anymore, meaning since that phone call. Mursel says he’s going to leave, while hands reveal both parties are already wearing wedding rings. This is the laziest fraud ever. In SurfaceLevel, LA, Jasmin is still an introvert, dealing with people who think instagram is real. Thus far she’s failed to dazzle Blake’s friends with her alcohol consumption or social acumen, which only leaves cosmetic enhancements and money for discussion. Jasmin admits her sister is the most important person to her, and she’s not trying to make friends with her first husband’s selfie network. Rita and Everett welcome her to the restaurant by giving her a hard time about her jacket and her choice of beverage. They then ask about the career and friend circle she’s launched in the 40 minutes she’s been stateside, and she doesn’t yet know that she’s supposed to express ambitions to be a model, jewelry designer, actress, or producer. Jasmin is at a loss. “We want to make her feel welcome, ” Rita lies. Blake declares himself Vice President of his record label, because he’s not even ready to lead his own invention, and Everett their #1 artist, because how else would this go? He wants to wait “more than five years” to have a child, because apparently men no longer have any concept of the limitations of female fertility. His friends are concerned about her desire to be a stay at home mom, since her income is required to make up for Blake’s inability to move out of his childhood bedroom. Everett says he hasn’t wrapped his head around this relationship yet, since it’s not bonded by bitchiness and superficial sameness like his relationship with Rita. Blake hopes he doesn’t have to choose between his friends and Jasmin. “THEY WILL BE THERE AFTER, ” Tania shouts from Costa Rica. “Oh, so you can shout from Costa Rica for Blake, but me, I’ll just be outside, turning the compost with my tears, ” Syngin retorts. “She doesn’t have to say she’s a designer, ” Tania is defensive. “She could also be an activist or a grad student or on a spiritual journey. We have options. ” Next time: Robert’s sister arrives to underscore his poverty status, while Natalie and Mike continue fighting while her mother cries, and Syngin and Tania are still bullshit. Jasmin is pretty sure her parents won’t be down to pay for a wedding when the marriage won’t make it a year, and Betsy delivers Sasha to the burn unit by noting that Emily’s expiration date is fast approaching. Thank you Patreon supporters, both old and new! Follow the links in the bio if you want to join my alien cult.

The struggles and beauty of life.

Screw Leopold who destroyed and slayed Congo and Congolese for his wealth. All the beautiful architecture in Belgium built in Leopold days from Congolese sweats and bloods. Is it set in present day, or 40 years ago when people of African heritage were racially disqualified from holding the priesthood.

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